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Cosmic Horror
04:33
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Verse 1:
The scent of commotion
A burning weeping willow in the dark
A perfume so potent
A feral animal fell from Mars
The queasiest of flora
The decadence it poured us
Steep all my fears away
The intimacy I never craved
Chorus 1:
Come with me
Queer prodigy
I loathe myself to death
But I’ll go with you wherever you want
Aubergine deity
I pledge myself to thee
I’ll haunt your house forever, my love
Verse 2:
Young Eldritch foreigner
Ravaging the confines of me
Old god eternal
Risen from rituals under the sea
I was pulled into red glowing lights
Cosmic horrors beyond neuron spikes
Dread all your earthly delights
There’s nowhere to hide
Chorus 2:
Cauliflower jubilee
An asexual’s wet dreams
A fornicator’s mass under sheets
A torturer’s empathy
A cigarette burn on my cheeks
Pollute the reservoir of my love
Outro:
Lovers who love more than sex made them to believe
I’ll fill your cup with dewdrops and rum
Anxiety cosmically infused with your vapid touch
I’ll give you all that’s promised at once
I’ll haunt your house forever, my love
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2. |
Diary Of A Cult Killer
02:48
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Verse 1:
Jagged crown, levity
Watch me lull myself to sleep
I was sold on the ideals of murderous queens
Chug a drink or choke on my dreams
Color-graded phantom pain
Feel free to let me elaborate
I was culling voices, stealing choices
Pick your poison
(I set myself up for failure)
Ignore the pleas of family
(I count the teeth marks on my chin)
Fellow freaks, come with me
(I set myself up for failure)
Anti-freeze martinis
(I suck the syrup from your drool)
Chorus:
Take a look
My love its all for you
Manifest
Arrest your need to be appraised
Verse 2:
Catch my drift, terraform
Supple suckling from the swarm
I was so caught up in my own abject realities
(I set myself up for failure)
Ignore the pleas of family
(I count the teeth marks on my chin)
Fellow freaks, come with me
Chorus:
Take a look
My love its all for you
Manifest
Arrest your need to be appraised
Take a look
My love its all for you
Ruminate
There is no need to be afraid
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3. |
New Gods
03:21
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Verse 1:
I’ve been saying things that I knew weren’t true
And I’ve been praying to gods I knew weren’t there
Are there idols kept neatly in your house too?
A warm Christmas, Yom Kippur, or a colorful Eid
Chorus:
I have a god that I worship
Yeah I’ve got a god that I worship
And that god is you
Verse 2:
The vast Internet, the pantheon, lord of light
Kids dying of disease, war, and Elon Musk
Cyborgs lining up for upgrades from their metal gods
But I’ve already found divinity in you
Chorus:
I have a god that I worship
Yeah I’ve got a god that I worship
And that god is you
Outro:
Old gods are through
Godhood renewed
My new god is you
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4. |
Suicide Notes
02:51
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Verse 1:
Mother, father, I’m sorry it came to this
Sister, brothers, don’t fear I’ve made a list
No carnal longing or nihilistic quotes
Just a lighter once used for burning suicide notes
Chorus:
Gloves off, heart out
Tethered to an immovable stone
Caught off guard, bound
Burned down to my very bones
Verse 2:
Cold embrace, I find you in my room
Rampant ramblings of impending doom
Colorless Ocean of unwavering guilt
Bloodied blade still wielded from the hilt
Chorus:
Gloves off, heart out
Tethered to an immovable stone
Caught off guard, bound
Burned down to my very bones
No longer strong
Finally some well-deserved rest
Don’t mourn too long
There are still three of us left
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Verse 1:
Last night I dreamed of you
A puncture wound in my headspace
The days that seemed to you
Just a little out of place
A gun that shot accountability at me
Your pulsing forehead vein
You cornerstone, you work of art
White pill to kill the pain
With a heart destined to fall apart
The diaspora just want what we both have
Want what we both have
Chorus:
Corner me
Then count to three
But hold your horses
Monogamy
And its debris
Best fasten your corset
It’s hard to hate you when you’re always right
Verse 2:
Last night I dreamed of you
And the grievances you had for me
Some cuts they bleed the truth
But mine just seemed to beg and plead
For love and the baggage that came along with it
Chorus:
Corner me
Then count to three
But hold your horses
Monogamy
And its debris
Best fasten my corset
It’s hard to hate you when you’re always right
Verse 3:
Last night I dreamed of you
Playing RY X on my bed
I helped you get dressed up
Tied your shoes, and kissed your head
And you kissed my lips instead
I wished this dream would never end
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Verse 1:
If you must leave, please go slowly
Come place your hand upon my cheek
I’ll still be wondering how I ever drove you away
Mama was wrong about you
You weren’t short of perfect
My eyes still wander hoping that they’ll find you again
Chorus:
I spy silhouettes of you on your favorite couch; curled up and warm
I still smell your favorite perfume etched on my pillowcases; it was my norm
Verse 2:
If you must leave, please go slowly
Take a quick glance back at me
Like in those movies we’d watch because I wanted to
Lover, you’re gonna go places
Find all the joy that you deserve
I’ll be here hoping that everything good comes straight to you
Chorus:
I spy silhouettes of you on your favorite couch; curled up and warm
I still smell your favorite perfume etched on my pillowcases; it was my norm
Outro (Falsetto):
I know that you’re gone
I know that it’s wrong
But I can’t stop thinking, “What if…”
I’ll take your advice
And give life a try
But I can’t see past the mountains and oceans of you
If you must leave, please go slowly
And please prepare to be a song
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Adil Azhar Toronto, Ontario
Adil Azhar is a Toronto-based singer-songwriter and a member of the art rock band,
Joshanda.
His debut solo EP, "blue". came out on his birthday, December 14th. 2016. His newest EP, "Little Box Of Death" comes out 6 years later and once again... Yep, it came out on his birthday.
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